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absolutely nothing i could possibly do will ever make me think differently. nothing i could ever think of will make me believe that those times didn't happen. it wasn't a dream. i wasn't imagining things. it happened. they happened. he happened....
and nothing will take that away. ever. not a single thing....
and i want to be happy that i'll carry them with me always....but it's impossible to be happy like this. it's impossible not to shed a tear for it. and it's impossible for me not to care.
i did nothing wrong. i made no mistake and this is still the payment i get in the end. well fuck my life.... how come it's even worth waking up every day anymore? when my dreams make me happy. he's back and i'm smiling and everything is as it feels it should be....
but i open my eyes and i'm alone in my room caught in my thoughts and still missing you....
I just fucking MISS you you heartless bastard....i just fucking miss you....
-lizz
and nothing will take that away. ever. not a single thing....
and i want to be happy that i'll carry them with me always....but it's impossible to be happy like this. it's impossible not to shed a tear for it. and it's impossible for me not to care.
i did nothing wrong. i made no mistake and this is still the payment i get in the end. well fuck my life.... how come it's even worth waking up every day anymore? when my dreams make me happy. he's back and i'm smiling and everything is as it feels it should be....
but i open my eyes and i'm alone in my room caught in my thoughts and still missing you....
I just fucking MISS you you heartless bastard....i just fucking miss you....
-lizz
dysfunctional
another trip to the cities. I had my doubts. Now I'm stoked. We'll see what the upcoming days bring. EXCITED....
and we're of!
-izzie
been talkin' to myself forever....
it feels good to be back in the cities again. it just lifts a terrible feeling off of my shoulders, and it feels amazing.
bought another beautiful pipe. so excited to break it in.
gonna get drunk and have a good time. then i'll get to see Katie tomorrow for brunch. :)
i got a hold of nate....and he claims he was going to let us hang out and catch up.... due to "phone problems", plans changed and he left earlier than expected. i'm trying to not be too worried about it. he talked to me....it's a step. i believe in second chances and i am trying to believe in him. so we'll see what this leads to.
it's good....
peace
-lizz
i'm not aware of too many things....
There's no light, there's no sound, hard to breathe when you're underground, can you hear me now?
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Brooke has told me that she thinks it's because he was not enough of a man to tell me that he had to go out of his way to find a reason to hate me just so he wouldn't have to be hurting himself. He was too afraid to except the fact that he was wrong and I did nothing, and the fact that he did like me bothered him. He couldn't accept that he had fallen again, and it scared him.
I believe that it could happen.
He had to search for a reason to hate me so that he could force us to say goodbye. He was just afraid. And he couldn't and sti
take my hand don't let go baby hold me
ick. another day. still missin him....them. still bored. still angry. still sad. still crazy. but i woke up today....i guess.
when things turn around they tend to turn around all at once.
we'll see how things go in the next few weeks.
if it wasn't worth it, then it wouldn't still matter so much. and if it still didn't matter so much, i'd be able to let it go....
but this is fucking ridiculous.
can't wait for my massive BANK income soon. well needed.
baby i promise i'll do all I can....
'cause i've been there before and you've been there before but together we can be alright....
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